And now, the hard part
That’s right, a second posting within a month. Where is this world going to?Just a quick update on the issue I tried to explain in my previous posting. Contact went up, phoning, txt-messaging, chatting… all fun. However, one thing remains: affection.
Today I got into a chat with her again and she pointed it out fair and square: yes she does like me, and no it won’t get any further. The reason’s pretty easy, she’s simply not ready to commit after her previous relationship (among other things I’m not aware of). However, there’s a small light somewhere just out of sight: she could not claim it won’t be anything ever.
And hence the hard part begins, the wait. I’m a really fastpaced guy when it comes to relationships. My mathematical background always makes me want to analyse my situation and to do so, you need every bit of information. And that’s my big mistake: you don’t get all those pieces of the puzzle. The result? Me shouting about just everything that’s on my mind and / or in my heart, which isn’t exactly the smartest thing to do. What I do need to do, is give her some time and space to work things out for herself, while still maintaining a position near her (don’t want her to forget about me, nor do I want to lose contact myself). Get her to realise whether she likes me, really likes me or perhaps even likes me enough to take a little gamble and see how things’ll end up. I know where my money is and where my hopes are. Unfortunately I’ll get to lose at least one of those…
People near me can claim whatever they want. If I’m to believe those, gazillions of females should be throwing themselves at my feet, while those who aren’t would be most likely out of their minds. I know better, I’m just great at goofing up.